Fall is my favorite season.

The weather is still warm most days and has a sharp chill in the evening. Leaves on the trees are beautiful oranges,yellows,and Burgundies,with a tinge of green here and there.
Sweaters instead of tank tops.Shoes and socks instead of flip flops.Jeans instead of having to shave your legs everyday!
Some anticipation of what is to come this winter. Watching a black woolly worm cross the road.
It still is like a blur when I think of my Uncle Mikey. He was with us for 14 months. He was living with me when I turned 44 and also when I turned 45. He had one Christmas with Me and Curt. It was his only Christmas without his Mom(my Grammy). I know it is all irrelevant. But still things I think about and sometimes dwell on. How I am sure I could have done a better job with him. Guilt sometimes. Then I have to make myself stop it! I tried doing my best. But it was always on my mind that I just wasn't quite good enough for the job. I know he is home now. He never did understand how this could be "home" when his mom and his dad were not living. He told me that, often. I would tell him that someday he would pass away and go to heaven and he would be able to see them again. I would say remember that is what we learn in church. It seemed to help a little. One day numerous times he mentioned Grammy and I got a little tired of hearing it and said, why are you talking about your mom so much today. You remember she passed away. And he just said "I am just missing her today" and wiped a few tears from his eyes.
I think more and more these days how I have been blessed. I still have my Mom living. My sisters.My husband who loves me so much. My daughters(my whole life) and baby Elias. As well as Curt's family, and kids, and grand kids! Also my dear Aunts,Uncles,cousins,nieces and nephews. I was even lucky enough to know my grandparents and one great grandmother in my life! Some aren't that fortunate.
Something about fall is so final. The last days of warm weather. Will we see spring again next year? Will we get to see green leaves and spring flowers blooming? Only the good Lord knows that answer for all of us. So we must live our lives right. We will see our family who have gone before us someday. There will be a day with no more pain,tears,or fear.