Elias, immunizations, and more

I got to Eddie and Miranda's about 8 their time yesterday. She was getting his cereal and fruit ready so of course I got to feed him. He is such a happy little guy and LOVES his baby food.

It is very moving to see my daughter being a mommy now. She did something I never thought of. She put 2 different spoons in his dish. One for cereal and one for fruit. Nothing wrong with that. Just something I never did. She is such a good mommy. Today as I rocked him to sleep and sang/hummed to him. I stopped when his eyes were closed and he was humming sort of in his sleep. Then he said mommmmm mommmm and was out. I figure he was thinking of her and missing her right then but was just too sleepy.

Eli, Lucy, Miranda, and Amy Jo, Miranda's friend, and I met at a restaurant for lunch. Eli was the center of attention when we walked in. Then another of Miranda's friends who is a waitress there took off to carry him around while we finished eating. Lucy and I went to walmart to kill some time until Eli's appointment. He notices everything even some pinatas hanging from the ceiling in the Halloween aisle. I wouldn't even have seen them if it wasn't for him looking up.

At the health department he got 3 different vaccinations and we had him laughing a few minutes later. Then he had a horrible diaper in the examining room. We laughed to see the rod blogajevich car trash bags were being using for disposal of the diapers. Oh then we had to take it with us since the nurse said they don't have bio hazard disposal in the facility. Yeah right in a health department. Oh well supposed the place would get smelly if each baby made a little deposit all day long.

Fall is my favorite season.

The weather is still warm most days and has a sharp chill in the evening. Leaves on the trees are beautiful oranges,yellows,and Burgundies,with a tinge of green here and there.
Sweaters instead of tank tops.Shoes and socks instead of flip flops.Jeans instead of having to shave your legs everyday!
Some anticipation of what is to come this winter. Watching a black woolly worm cross the road.
It still is like a blur when I think of my Uncle Mikey. He was with us for 14 months. He was living with me when I turned 44 and also when I turned 45. He had one Christmas with Me and Curt. It was his only Christmas without his Mom(my Grammy). I know it is all irrelevant. But still things I think about and sometimes dwell on. How I am sure I could have done a better job with him. Guilt sometimes. Then I have to make myself stop it! I tried doing my best. But it was always on my mind that I just wasn't quite good enough for the job. I know he is home now. He never did understand how this could be "home" when his mom and his dad were not living. He told me that, often. I would tell him that someday he would pass away and go to heaven and he would be able to see them again. I would say remember that is what we learn in church. It seemed to help a little. One day numerous times he mentioned Grammy and I got a little tired of hearing it and said, why are you talking about your mom so much today. You remember she passed away. And he just said "I am just missing her today" and wiped a few tears from his eyes.
I think more and more these days how I have been blessed. I still have my Mom living. My sisters.My husband who loves me so much. My daughters(my whole life) and baby Elias. As well as Curt's family, and kids, and grand kids! Also my dear Aunts,Uncles,cousins,nieces and nephews. I was even lucky enough to know my grandparents and one great grandmother in my life! Some aren't that fortunate.
Something about fall is so final. The last days of warm weather. Will we see spring again next year? Will we get to see green leaves and spring flowers blooming? Only the good Lord knows that answer for all of us. So we must live our lives right. We will see our family who have gone before us someday. There will be a day with no more pain,tears,or fear.