Quick trip to the mall 9 days before Christmas,

I got ready to go do a few last minute errands today. No appetite yet but feeling much better after about 24 hours of stomach bug. Grabbed a diet pepsi on the way out the door. Got inside the mall and ran into my Aunt Betty and cousin Brenda. So happy to see them and can't believe how much Aunt Betty reminds me of Grammy. Head on down to the hallmark store, and start feeling really weird, heart just pounding like crazy. Tried to read a few cards to calm down. Didn't really work so I went to get a drink from the water fountain. (I never drink out of a public water fountain but was desperate!) Went into bath and body works but all those different scents didn't really help the way I was feeling. (Can't believe the sign said $35 to get a picture on santa's lap). Decide its time to go get something to eat and maybe I will feel better. But before I leave the mall I run into the minister's wife. Talked to her for a minute, but she probably wondered what was wrong with me I hope I didn't look or act as bad as I felt! Didn't get anything accomplished at the mall. Went to get a quick sandwich then on to get my hair trimmed up. Then walking out to my car get really winded and heart pounding again. Got myself home and back into my sweats and taking it easy the rest of the night.

Christmas is coming soon.

I am just realizing today that if I am going to put up a tree I need to do it really soon! Most of the christmas shopping is done. Got in on a few really good deals online. Its the same old thing every year when you just feel like you will never get enough for everyone. But it never really matters once the day is here and everything is ripped open. Then you realize again that what matters the most is being together with family once again.
I always like the song by Vince Gill: When the season comes 'round again... Lets all try and smile for the picture,and we'll hold it as long as we can,May it carry us through should we ever get lonely till the season comes 'round again.
This Christmas I can't help feeling a little down in the dumps. But I know I am so blessed with my grandson Elias and Curt's little grandkids too.
I will be taking the CNA course in terre haute starting in january. Excited and scared. Probably be one of the oldest in the class. I truly fear classes and tests! But this is something I know a little bit about so maybe won't be so bad. It is a 3 week class then you take the state test. After the 2nd week of class you can start working as a CNA. I have talked to one nursing home already and will apply at other places too.
For now I will just be here dreaming of a white christmas and getting things done on my list.